I don’t know what I want,

and it’s so frustrating. I want to be over you already and yet not give up at the same time. When we talk and have those pointless conversations, it’s great. I feel happy, amazing. It’s truly an incredible feeling. But when we disagree, when we ignore each other, when we’re stubborn and don’t talk, it’s horrible. I hate it so much, I want everything over with. Sometimes I think I can’t take it anymore. I just can’t. It’s too painful. But I feel like I just can’t let you go, I just can’t give up, not like this. It’s confusing and I don’t feel like thinking about it anymore. I just want things back to the way it was before.